What is Faith?

In my darkest moment I reached out for comfort. I didn't ask why this had to happen to me. I think that is faith. I knew there was comfort for me - I knew if I could reach out, it would be there. I knew that if I just asked and let go a little that I would be okay. Sure, there were times that I thought, does it have to hurt so much? or does recovery have to take quite so long? Sometimes I wondered when I would hear some good news, like the date I'd be released from the hospital. But through it all, I knew it would be okay. There were many people that came to support me spiritually. A chaplain, a priest, a healer. The chaplain suggested this short prayer, "Be still and know that I am God." As I said it I felt like I was actually in God's palm - what a beautiful feeling of comfort and security. One morning after a terrible feverish night sleep, I finally dozed off. I woke up with the the voices from my church choir in my ear singing Total Praise. I am changed. Not in my faith or my belief. I am changed in what faith can do for all of us. Believe.

Home At Last

It's been an unbelievable two weeks. An adventure of some kind. I am still in a haze, but slowly coming to the surface of my life. I have had wonderful care at the hospital. My friends and family have been unbelievably supportive and caring - doing much more than I ever asked. It has been overwhelming and humbling to feel so cared for and loved. I have a great life and I'm so glad to get back into it.

My Life

My life in the past two weeks

1) barfing & stomach pain
2) ER for 6 hours
3) CT scan #1
4) admitted to hospital
5) more barfing and stomach pain
6) diverticulitis diagnosis
7) perforated colon
8) abscess
9) CT scan #2
10) waiting to see what will happen
11) IV antibiotics
12) CT scan #3
13) decision to fix colon surgically
14) clear out colon for 24 hours, drinking horrible stuff
15) surgery
16) recover from surgery
17) low hemoglobin
18) get blood transfusion
19) getting nutrition and medicine through neck
20) hurt knee
21) get it drained and cortisone injected
22) washed hair
23) first day of eating today
23) recovering